I’m sick of doing the same thing everyday and not getting very far, sometimes worse.

Every night I lay in bed thinking of all the changes I want to make in my life

Things like quitting smoking, losing weight, having a baby and becoming healthy and pain free.

But each morning I wake and keep doing exactly what I’ve done for years, it’s frustrating cause I know I can do better.

I think deep down I’m scared of what the future could be if I changed.

But in the same note I don’t want to live this way anymore.

I’m just not sure how to go about it, I feel like somehow I’ll be missing out if I quit smoking and lost weight and got healthy.

I know that may sound stupid because I know I can gain a lot from doing the above.

Please comment if you have ever felt this way or know a way I can do this without feeling like I’m losing out.

I keep thinking it’s not a good idea to do it all at once but again I think a lot of that is in my head, because I know I can do a lot better than I am.

Until next time

Seeya GAM